Sorrow & joy...

"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." — Khalil Gibran

Cactus // at grandma's house....
Struggling for words here. What to share and what to keep? I'll say that there is deep sorrow within my family right now. We are losing a mother, a grandmother, a great grandmother, our matriarch.

I've never experienced something like this before, hospice. It hurts like an ache, sometimes dull and then sharp and throbbing pain. I might find myself standing in line at a store and then realize I'm sobbing. But we still laugh about silly things and enjoy our time together. So it goes. It feels right to be where I am, at home and surrounded by family and all these memories....

all our little things...secret albums...

Chotchkies // at grandma's house....
Line dry// at grandma's house....
at grandma's house....
(click the images for more. I tried to add a little more backstory about each image on flickr too.)

8 comments:

  1. Sending love. Lots of love. xo

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear this :( I lost my grandfather in October and hospice was a roller coaster of reliving and re-loving a lifetime of wonderful shared moments. Take each moment slowly. I wish I had something better to say, I wish you comfort and love with your family right now.

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  3. I miss you and have you in my thoughts - Vanessa castaldo

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  4. dear jess,
    i love you!
    love always, big k little c
    <3<3<3

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  5. Thank you so much Danielle & Jessica...

    Georgia- I can totally relate to how you describe "reliving and re-loving". Thank you for sharing with me...

    Vanessa- miss you...

    KC - big hug, little kiss to you...

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  6. Aw, I'm sorry to hear this Jessica. I went through a hospice stay with my Papi, and it was such a strange and sad place. Almost limbo-like in the photos, memories shared, tears, and smiles. Hugs for you.

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  7. I just went through this with my own grandmother a month ago . It's surreal and heartbreaking and all about cherishing time with family.

    sending good thoughts...

    susan

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